I’ve just come out of another surprise couple month-ish long depressive episode, and am now diving head first into a heat warning when every single medication I am on causes heat sensitivity. The air conditioner at home went in last night and is working hard to take the edge off at home.
As it turns out, ventilation in the office at work is broken, and it was only marginally better at work than it was outside yesterday. Maybe it will be better in there next week In the meantime, I have the air conditioning in the car to get me by.
Since coming out of this depressive episode, I have had some thoughts and thought I might share some of them. They may or may not be deep and insightful.
Summer seems to be another depressive season for me. I’ve just come out of another episode and seeing everything that was neglected during the episode is hard.
Since I bought my iPad, I have fallen in love with digital art. I want to learn all the things!
I have zero motivation to write my book. It has been sitting there, waiting… and just nope. It has been months now.
I appreciate my roommate in that I know he sees me. I also know he would say something if things ever got really bad. He can be supportive, but also kick my ass if I need it.
I need to figure out balancing work again. I’ve lost my groove as far as managing my desk goes.
My bed, in my room, is the safest place in the world for me. Sometimes, I never want to leave it.
Giving my weeks a routine makes my brain happy. Now, just to figure out how to keep that routine going.
Even when busy, my people always remember to check in. I love them like family and could not imagine a lift without them.
The marigolds on my deck are thriving. My deck looks great this year. Just need to start using it now.
I missed reading. I’m back to reading daily, and I don’t know how I went without it.
Summer quickly evolves into hell. Thanks heat, I hate it. It not only bums me out because I can’t really go outside due to my heat sensitivity, but it also makes my body pain much more difficult to manage.